After it being so warm these past couple days i was hoping that we wouldn't have anymore snow. Guess i was wrong. Once again were having another "snow storm" suck my nuts snow. I hate you.
I couldn't even wait for Ashton to come home from work at 3pm and now thanks to the wonderful abilities of mother nature i doubt him and his little car will make it to my house in the depths of Richmond. What the hell. I really want to see him
And the fact that we are probably not going to school tomorrow, is what my mother says, but knowing Chariho we will have to go and wait 40mins in snow for broken down buses, slip and fall and break our legs on the ice, just to sit in class on a monday and not do a goddamned thing. Oh joy.

Steve didnt do it.... he called me and told me he didnt do it.
I guess i have no choice but believe him... but someone did it.
Someone deleted everything that i had, EVERYTHING

they left a message saying "Guess who this is you see me everyday"

i can't believe this is happening to me!
What did i do to deserve this!!??? NOTHING
I'm not a bad person, i dont know any other fights with anyone but Steve
I'm so confused and hurt that someone would destroy everything

Fuck....... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Well this upsets me, your journal. And your choice to throw my friendship out the window. See i do smoke, and thats fine with my other friends. i dont encourage them to do it, i dont preasure them to do it because i am their friend. You were a good friend of mine and i never ever would put you in an uncomfortable situation if you brought it up to me. i understand that its illegal and you dont want to be around it because of said reasons but this is a little much. I never did anything to intentionally affend you so basically ill put it simply, im pretty fucking pissed. I never did you any wrong and you simply just decide on a whim your going to throw my friendship away? Fuck you, you heartless asshole. Your just a judgemental prick who takes petty things in peoples life and purposly appoints them a 'roblem' in your own life. Oh and by the way, quit saying i have Ashton whipped. Hes my boyfriend and we equally share eachother. We had some rough times in the past but thats really not your place to be pointing fingers at me about situations you have no part of. We are doing great, not that you would know. And besides how would you know relashonships anyway, coming from a guy who barricades themselves in their house 24/7. So fuck you Steve, i thought you were my friend. I guess i was wrong.

Tomorrow is the last day of exams
and ive been up since 1:40am
i dont know why but i can't sleep at all
i now feel sick to my stomach

Tomorrow i have my youth and law exam
which is my rape report
and also my speech exam in which i am
G Man from Half Life

i just finished organizing the script
and i did a little more work on my
rape report that i have to presitate to the class
its a report and idk how im going to present it

and my speech by G Man is pretty short
i'm not sure how long the speech is suppose to be
probably like 2 minutes long and mine is only 40secs
oh well i have like a 95 in the class
so it dosent really matter
and im wearing my button down white shirt and
Ashton's bringing in a tie and i need to
bring in a suitcase or something

im going to be so tired tomortow
ive been up all night
and i am suppose to work on the ambulance tomorrow night
but i think the moment i get home i'll pass out
i havent gone in a while and i really needed to
Tom was wondering where i was and i told him
i was deffinetly going to go tomorrow

i'm screwed, this sucks it's 4:30am
i should go try sleeping again
goodnight everyone

im just about ready to die
im pretty sick right now

anyway i havent updated my journal in a while
i have less then 5 mins to write this cause
class is almost over and ive been working
on my rape project that im just about finished

last week i worked my ass off doing
lab reports and powerpoint presintations
and this week is mid terms...
whoopee fucking dooooh....

im not feeling that great and i just had gym
so i just went to the library to work on stuff
which i did and i happy i got work done

ive been pretty much working for the past couple weeks
i have some bad habbits that ive gotten into
but who cares, i dont, things will be fine
...i hope

but yeah me and Ashton have been pretty good
we dont fight all the time anymore which is swell
a couple arguments here and there but hey were only human

im kinda sad because of [censor] and i dont know what to do



bell just rang
gotta go
bye